I am a woman,a wife and a mother

It is far beyond my imagination to have a life of what I am experiencing now. This is a mystery in the sense that I was really dreaming of a life in a bed of roses when I was younger. I therefore say that its not easy to survive when you're in the right age to face your own battle for survival.

We can never say what lies ahead of us. When I was young and in love, I think happiness is just a click of a hand. I decided to settle down without really thinking of the consequences for the next years to come. For that time all I think was I am happy and in love. And for that reason I believe that our love will conquer all the hindrance of living together. And I got married in the wrong time.

I worked hard for the small family we build with my husband. We take all the gamble of luck. We tried to venture into a lot of things that promises so much returns. But unluckily we never survive for the chances we take. It is so painful to think of the time and resources that was wasted for a wrong investment. But we never give up.

We lift everything to Him and tried to fixed all the chances that we forgot to consider that there is somebody who knows well whats best for us. I am still happy seeing us survive after all the struggles we had. Our quest for a better tomorrow was not yet over.

We decided to take a separate lives even if we know that this will allow evil to work along the way. We had God and our trust to each other never vanished even in our darkest days of the relationship.

It is not easy to see my family apart from each other. The pain of seeing my child growing without a father is killing my emotions and turning my heart into pieces. But I don't have a choice but to be a father and a mother at the same time.

The apart of my family is for our own good. This is just the beginning of our battle for survival. Along the way I know that there would be thousands of bombs that would trigger the knot that tied our of love and wisdom.

I don't know whats next with the ventures we take. I was just praying that all goes well. I therefore conclude that it is not easy to be woman.

In my life today I cannot show the wicked part of my emotions. As a woman I should reflect a strong and aggressive personality and yet deep inside me I was shouting for comfort and care. As a wife I have to be strong to say I missed my husband.But I never gave a room of lonesome because I know were both feeling the same thing. The talks and calls that we had on the phone create a bond and eases the pain and miseries. As a mother I have to be strong for my kids. I gave them the time and chance of being happy. I showed then the world of luxuries even in our downside moments.

My description of world of luxuries doesn't only mean the financial things. Because for me the love and comfort is already a luxuries of having a mother and a friend. Just like my mom I always gave off myself to them.

This is really whats make the essence of a woman. We have the whole of everything. We have to be flexible in all times and be as strong as we can be.

After all these years I am very happy because in spite of the hardships we were still surviving and fighting for our next battle.